Yeah. I’m not all ba-humbug, or shit. My to-do list is just so fucking outta control I am seriously eyeing that last box of wine!! Why is it all on me? Fuck this shit. I didn’t work this hard when I had a job. Of course, it was just me & Boo. Fucking cooking & baking in a kitchen barely large enough to squeeze my fat ass into is bad enough . . . And all I get is fucking criticized. Guess I’ll kill myself to make everyone else happy. But seeing everyone else happy will give me so much joy (even for a brief moment) it’s worth it. Looking so forward to tomorrow night & Wednesday!!! Can’t wait.
Can’t wait till I can sit still & just enjoy a few minutes. And let the kids go nuts. And just embrace the chaos & God help anyone who tries to make them behave. I’m done. They are kids!! I am off work. Everyone is on their own, & if anyone wants a fight, by God, you’re gonna fucking lose!
There’s an old saying to pick your fights. Figure that shit out. I have OCD, so if anyone expects to win against that, you are a fool & can go fuck yourself. I am entitled to a well-deserved breakdown, so if you don’t see my posts for a while, it’s cuz my crazy ass is in jail. THIS WILL BE BOO’S BEST CHRISTMAS EVER, or so help me, God! It very well may be his last magic Christmas. So that fucking tears me up.
I go back to my shrink in a few weeks, cuz the OCD meds stopped working & I can barely leave my apartment. Fuck my ADHD!! NONE of the meds worked!! Focus on the bigger issue – the one that is disabling me – OCD!!! GOD, please keep me from macing her if she acts all fucking stupid & puts me on vyvance for my ADHD again. ADHD isn’t causing panic atracks! Dumb ass!!
Another saying is, “if Mamma ain’t happy, ain’t nobody happy. ” there are some mo-fo’s that need to figure that fucking shit out! Boo gets it, & he’s 8!
Yes, Erin, I’ll go see Fr. Don w/ my crazy ass soon.
Merry Christmas, bitches!! Peace & be kind to everyone, dammit! And that means being a fucking considerate fucking driver!! And if you are driving in the fast lane/HOV lane Christmas day in the DFW. area, & a black Jag XF gets on ur bumper . . .move the fuck outta my damn way or I will run u off the road, OR else get your license plate & HUNT YOUR MOTHERFUCKING ASS DOWN!!!!
I love ya’ll for listening & truly hope I can give you some understanding, acceptance, help, or just a “how NOT to be.”
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May we all have a peaceful & joyous holiday!!