Exhausted, really. Tired of waiting for better days. Waiting for problems to be solved. Waiting to feel better. Waiting for things to work out. Waiting for life to begin. Waiting to be happy. Waiting.
Waiting at the check-out line. Waiting for Boo to finally stop talking back. Waiting for Diva to start talking. Waiting to do anything.
When I was a kid, I waited to be able to drive. Then waited to vote & get into night clubs. Waiting to go to college. Waiting to move out. Later waiting get into the cool night clubs. Waiting to purchase adult beverages.
Waiting to get married. Waiting to have kids. Waiting to get divorced. Waiting to restore credit in my own name. Waiting to have a home built. Then, suddenly, everything was – far from perfect, but the only waiting I seemed to do was in traffic.
Then, waiting to get remarried, waiting for Boo to start Kindergarten. Waiting to deliver Diva. Waiting to trade in vehicles. Waiting to sell the house.
I need a few years to just enjoy life. I see it rushing by a bit faster with each passing day. While I wait, my grip on the idea of happiness, the very thought of enjoyment, simply eludes me.
I wait for spring break, in hopes we will enjoy one day together. I must break this waiting cycle. One day is coming, but today is one day to enjoy, too.
Time waits for no one. Don’t let life pass you by.