So, I have a ton of things whirling around my head like bees in a wildflower field. Shrink said to double up on vyvanse. Ok. Done. Still figety. If that doesn’t work, we’ll be looking at a different medication. We’ll give it a few weeks.
“And no doctor ever diagnosed you all through school?” She asked me in utter disbelief. Once again, I told her that my parents thought it was just who I was. A free spirit. But today, she asked about school. I told her all about my daily trips to the front desk, weekly paddlings, constantly being moved around the classroom, sitting out at recess, writing sentences, copying the dictionary.
“Was I disruptive in class?” Lady, seriously? I am disruptive at parent teacher conferences even now. And when did it start? Ummm, birth, I’m guesding. I can’t ever remember sitting still or quiet. My grandmother would bribe me with money, her husband with trips to the toy store. My parents had pretty much given up trying to control me by the time I was 8 or 9. I was just . . . I had too much energy, & talked too much, and way too fast.
My room was a mess. Always. Toys everywhere. I loved to clean the main living areas, though. No toys in sight. No Barbies or Legos to distract me, just one thing at a time to focus on. Dusting, vacuuming, cooking & baking stuff. Decorating, rearranging, you got it! Golf was good, but by 9 holes my dad was worn out by me. Piano at 13. Ahh. Something to keep me still. I was super-hyper-focused. And God help anyone or anything that disturbed me while I ritualisticly practiced, understanding & appreciating every note, as if they were written just for me.
Today I have too much to do. So I’ve done nothing productive. And I’m good with that. Diva & I played. We sang. We argued over the names of colors. But overall, happily, blissfully unproductive day. Facebook helped.
Did you know a police officer is killed in the line of duty every 52 hours? Staggering. How does that not make News? I am baffled, to be quite honest. A few bad decisions or bad cops, & that is the picture painted to us by our media. Not the thousands of good cops.
Next up: Can anyone explain to me why there are thousands upon thousands of Christians being killed by terrorists, not just in the Middle East, but has recently been spreading to other continents . . . And not so much as an eyebrow is being raised? But for some reason, when Israel seeks to protect itself from these same terrorist groups, our whole country is up-in-arms.
Muslims, by in large, are peace-loving. Or at least the ones I presently know or have known, are very much peace-loving. So I am talking about the militant, extremist terror groups, just so we are clear. These groups, Hamas, or which ever one is wherever you’re looking, thrive on fear & hatred, seeking only destruction & extermination. They will accept no peace until every religion converts or dies.
So, when extremist terror cells begin killing Jews, kidnapping their children, bombing busses, launching rockets onto civilians, that is ‘acceptable’. And when Israel retaliates, after bombing the area with warnings to the civilians to evacuate the area so they will not be among the casualties as they seek out these terror cells, “how dare they hurt these poor terrorists & the innocent women and children they hide behind!?!?” Excuse me, but WHAT THE FUCK?!
What, pray tell, am I missing? “The Lebonese have been oppressed by the Israelis.” Really? And they have just been minding their own business, and the greedy Jews have just decided to take back what was won in a 4-day battle over, what, 60+years ago all of a sudden? Seriously? Is everybody just ate up with the dumbass, or does anyone else smell shit?
As with the Muslims I know, the Jewish people I know are equally peace-loving. So, what’s really going on? Media paints Israel as the bad guys. Much like media paints cops as bad guys. All it takes is a few bad ones, & the public convicts, with only the little, biased news snippets they are fed.
I don’t care your religion – if you are a terrorist, I don’t like you. Period. There is no need to tolerate such behavior in civilized society. It cannot exist if we are to have freedom & order. If allowed, we would all be living in a constant state of fear, which is exactly what terrorists want. So, peace-loving people on both sides, & a group of thugs, holding one side hostage, while terrorizing & bullying the other, then shouting “no, no, Israel started it, we were only testing our rocket launchers when they went off, simultaneously, for several hours at a time.” And why, If Israel is so oppressive, has not one UN resolution or sanction been wagered against them? The US & UN have no problem issuing sanctions against other countries, & we (the US) have been threatened with sanctions in the past for our own flagrant disregard when flying off half-cocked. The thought that America stands with Israel is just a farce. If that wad true, why has the media turned the masses against Israel by telling partial stories of what is going on over there?
That still doesn’t explain why Christians are being targeted for slaughter by yet another Muslim extremist group in Africa now. For cenuries, I read, that Muslims & Christians have lived in peace in remote areas of Africa, but in recent weeks, a terror group has come in, killing literally thousands, entire villages, because they were peace-loving Christians. That was their only offense. And they were unaware of any uprisings or anything that could possibly warrant such crimes, and were uttrly unprepared for such immediate & unrelenting onslaught. And the UN sits quiet. And the US sits quiet. And one mention is made on CNN, but that’s about the sum of it. No outcry for justice. No assistance for the helpless. Not one damn thing.
And I can’t help but think that if it were Christians attacking peace-loving Muslims, hell would be breaking lose until DC deployed troops to help protect the remaining Muslim villages. Why is that? Why has this administration done nothing for his family’s homeland. Isn’t his family a branch of the original church from Egypt? The homeland of every African-American? Why is the African-American Christian community not outraged? Where is Jesse Jackson? Elections are just a few years away, afterall. Why not swoop in & secure both the African-American & the white Christian voted in one swoop?
Because the land is of no value. And the people we would be protecting are valued at less than what we value our own American soldiers, and our Western ideals, like democracy & freedom, and Christianity. Why did the US abstain from involvement while the Nazis gathered and killed Jews? **There went your arguments that the US loves Jews & Christians, as the US hangs both religions ‘out-to-dry.’**
Why? “Not our circus, not our monkeys.” It’s very easy for a country to stand on laurels & principles when we have a stake in the game, like when Japan pulled us in by bombing Pearl Harbor, or when we were out for blood after 9/11. But here we sit as a religious persecution is underway. Another Holocaust, and sit is ALL we do. It is not advantageous for the corporations pulling legislative strings to become involved. So we wait. Until Christians are in fear of their lives, or are deliberately, and systematically eliminated.
For 200 years, we claimed to be a Christian country. We put God in our pledge, on our money, referenced Him in acceptance speeches, prayed to Him in our schools, & now the last one is outlawed, the third one is kinda vague, as to be politically correct, & the first two are under attack every other months. Again, what the fuck? Did some kid who claimed to be a Christian bully you in 2nd grade? Can you get over it?
Why would a group of people believing complete nonsense, nothing more than superstition, bother a true minority of the country at large? Why are some atheists so worried about a god or religion they don’t even believe in?
The pursuit of happiness. Is it interfering with happiness if a nativity scene is displayed in public? Or if the word Christmas is used? Let’s face it, if you don’t know why you’re buying presents, you’re an idiot. If you don’t know the official holiday’s name for when you get a day off, or your kids are out of school a few weeks – you are an utter failure. Everyone, all religions, know what Christmas is. And we all know it’s called Christmas. So denying Christians to pursue their happiness, is really only making you appear weak-minded & scared of something. What? What in hell are atheists so scared of? So we take down the 10 commandments in all government buildings. What are you doing? Crushing their morale? Do you really think that’s going to change anyone’s mind? Forcing Christians to convert, or be condemed by our government. Forcing society to look down on Christianity as archaic & naive for only the simple-minded dolts who refuse to accept your belief that there is no belief. Isn’t that kinda what terrorists do? They oppress a group they despise. How long before practicing Christianity is outlawed? How long after that before Christians are being killed in the US, without any guff from the UN?
It could never happen here. That is exactly what the Jewish popuation in Europe thought, too. Russia, Germany, France, Austria, Hungary, Switzerland . . . All believed it was impossible to happen there, too. Such a thing had never existed. Not on that scale. Not just genocide, a cleansing to eradicate all religion from society. Much like some people want in this country, Africa, and the Middle East. And those who fail to learn from mistakes of the past are damned to repeat them. And it appears we are heading down that road like a squirrel after a nut.
So, what is a christian, this vile human denied entitlement of the basic right to live? This dispicable evil that is out to save your soul (gasp – what an atrocious idea to consider another’s well being?). Well, the word Christian simply means one who follows Christ. In non-Christian-terms, someone who believes Jesus was the Messiah, & vowing to live their life based on what He taught over 2000 years ago. *atheists – are you seriously worried here? Dear God, they may actually love you.*
The biggest problem I find is that so many “Christians” have never actually read Jesus’ teachings. That becomes obvious to me as I see Christians judging, condemning, hating, & being intollerant to others, fellow christians included. Jesus #1 message was love. For all you Westboro Baptist Church members – “here’s your sign”. So many follow the interpretations of a person standing in a pullpit, over their individual ability to open a book & actually read what the man, Jesus, had to say 2000 years ago. It was important enough to write down & keep circulating 2 millennia, so you’d think it would rank up there on their to-do list to acually read it once or twice. Love doesn’t envy, or boast, does not hate or judge. Yeah. It doesn’t oppress, or force others to believe, either, in my opinion. It simply LOVES. That was kinda big. He spells out right there what non-Christians hate about Christians – we’re a bunch of hypocrites. But does that mean we should be denied the basic right to life? Well, some groups believe so. Should we be made to hide our traditions, forsaking what we hold dear, just because it makes someone else uncomfortable? Obviously. And I just think that’s messed up.
And another damn thing! Mexico is holding one of our Marines (freetahmoorsi) for taking a wrong turn & having his military-issued weapon on him. We released 3 Mexican military personnel months ago for doing the same thing. What gives? I’m gonna have to call out Obama on this one. Dude needs to man up & tell those bitches “to release our serviceman or it will be seen as an act of war. We already took Texas. Bitches better give us our guy or God knows what we’ll be after next. Take a look at the Middle East, suckah.” Then hang up, like a boss.
Our borders being secured is simply a bad joke. 5200 children, unaccompanied minors, were able to cross. Months ago a Mexican military helicopter even flew into our airspace, and actually fired on border patrol agents as the sought to stop some illegals crossing into the US. Where the hell was the outrage there? Or was that part of Fast & Furious part II for this administration?
Don’t even get me started on Chris Stevens, or that whole mess in Benghazi. And NO retaliation. Nothing was done to show the world we will not cower to terrorists. Nope. We’re just gonna sit here, cover it up, & move on to the next attack on Liberty & Freedom. For much of the world, America is the beacon of hope. Yeah. Not so much. Fail. We just don’t care. Not like we do about ALS or the Kardashians.
And, for my final chapter of this volume’s installment of Epic Rants, taxing the rich/corporations. Yeah. Because they’re all stupid, have no tax attorneys, & no means to remedy a higher tax on them than the rest of us. Secondly, it’s just not fair to penalize those who make more money. As much as I think it’s just gross how one person could rise to fortune on the backs of hard-working Americans to live a lavishly decadent lifestyle, if we buy into it, then he has earned the right to those spoils, whether or not he/she gives back is on them, not me, you, or government to force upon them.
Perhaps in non-capitalist nations, but not so much here (as I point to a map of the United States). Doing such only creates resentment & hatred between the classes. Case in point – the Oracle from Omaha took Burger King & moved headquarters to our Northern Neighbor (Canada). Yeah. Way to keep that money here – where we desperately need it. So, how is this plan going to benefit us, if other corporations follow suit? We’ll be bankrupt, starving, sick from Monsato’s GMOs, & Godless, without hope, or a single prayer. Prime targets for terror cells to emerge & wipe the Christian, Jewish, & yep, even the atheist scourge from their last foot-hold: America. She’s not looking so great. We’ve had some shit administrations, lazy bastages for representatives, and greedy corporations playing puppeteer.
What we have in DC is very truthfully, the fox guarding the hen house. We elect representatives to fight for us, and to protect us from the very sources, these corporations, that are giving them bribe money, under the guise of lobbyist campaigning, while in return, they are free to poison us with “safe for consumption” products that are banned in other countries for being toxic, or as a known carcinogen. You’re damn right I’m mad! I expect the food I eat, the water I drink, & the medince I take NOT to be killing me. Call me crazy, but I think my right to life kinda takes precedence over a bunch of slobs getting rich at our expense. Slobs I elected to put my & your best interest first! Food & Drugs are just one part of the problem. The main issue we have got to outlaw is lobbying. If not, we will have lost all hopes of this country & her people to be free of this political machine that has a strangle-hold on our very freedoms.
We. Are. Fucked. That’s all. As we approach this Labor Day holiday weekend, I have been thinking about 9/11. Whether or not it was a terrorist plot or a meticulously planned demolition carried out as some elaborate scheme to have a reason to start up a conflict in the Middle East, but for what I have to say, your inclination either way will work. I remember the 7-day no fly restriction, while agency think tanks figured what could be done to forever prevent this from happening again. How & where to crack down, and assess our vulnerabilities. How to, in essence, regain our blissful innocence. Other nations expressed sympathy. As a 27-year old, hearing on the radio a passenger plane hit a Twin Tower, and as I got out of my car, my boss yelling for me to come inside immediately, I was unaware how that day would unfold, or what it would mean for me always.
I remember him asking if I’d heard what had happened. I said yes, and something along the lines of ‘isn’t it just terrible’. As the guys working on the dock downstairs hurried in with a television from their break room, we waited to see if anything would be on our local news.
National news had overridden all local channels. I remember standing with our staff, men & women alike weeping aloud as we watched the first tower fall.
Regardless of religion, sexuality, or any of that HR bullshit. We formed a circle & held each other up, and we each began praying. Praying for our Nation. For New York. For peace. For a cease from attacks. For quiet. For sanity to be restored. No work was done that day. In stores, and on roadways, people were being considerate. A nation in shock & disbelief. And for a brief moment in our history, it didn’t matter your economic or social status, your race, ethnicity, gender, religion, or sexual orientation, and it didn’t matter if you were a 12-generation born native, or you arrived here a week earlier – for a brief moment in time, we were all Americans, we were all human. And we embraced one another as Americans, equally humbled by this event. We were all of one eternal spirit, & linked by our own humanity. And for the first time in our lifetime for many of us, our innocence had been stripped away forever. We were no longer immune to terrorists finding their way to hurt us; no longer a safe harbor from terror. It was no longer something on the news that happed some place over . . . There. The ugliness of hatred had been brought to our doorstep.
And for a while, we banded together to gain reassurance that we would make it through. An overall kindness among strangers. A complete outpouring of hope & survival.
We are forever changed, now. I remember George W. likening it to being sucker-punched & telling us all, that “we get back up”. And for many years pride and patriotism was something beautiful. Yet today, not even half a century later, it is scorned. That kinda makes me sad. But, that I got to see, first hand, all the goodwill that humanity is truly capable of, & just remembering that day, & the days that immediately followed, gives me hope that all is NOT lost. That people are inherently good. And we choose good, & to do good (people, not corporations).
This whole place may be fucked, but there’s a shitload of good people out there, & good in general. And so is your life, & mine. Despite whatever shitstorm you are in, whatever challenge that has landed on your door, dig deep, look indide yourself, & find it in you to persevere. To face your fears. But most of all – get your happy. Shit happens & life is short.
Peace, bitches. Sorry I’m late. It took 4 hours to write. And I fell asleep twice.
Oh yeah. Nails still hanging in there, even after habanero peppers & some lemons effectively ate away at my fingernail tips (the same combo melted acrylic nails a few years ago, just sayin’)
CAN YOU SAY ADHD????